I met up with a friend for lunch the other day and she made a comment that took me back. Back to the place where my stinking thinking about drinking kept me captive.
She said that logically she knows there is no benefit to her drinking. “But I feel like I work hard, and after a long day, I deserve it.” I instantly remembered making the same argument in my drinking days.
Now, sixteen months sober, I know that I didn’t deserve it. Neither does my friend, and neither do you.
You deserve so much better. You deserve to have a healthy body that you don’t pour poison into after a long day. You do work hard and you deserve peaceful rest and rejuvenation–not fitful sleep and dehydration.
You deserve to have a healthy mind that is not held captive by toxic thoughts. Obsessive thoughts that cause you to break promises to yourself and your self-worth to plummet. You deserve to live in a healthy mental space that allows you to thrive instead of just survive.
You deserve a chance to live your best life as the best version of yourself, and you can’t do that while carrying the weight of compulsive behaviors and the panic of feeling powerless to change.
You don’t deserve a drink. You deserve a life you don’t need to escape from.
And the only way you will see what you really deserve is if you stop believing what society and your brain have conditioned you to believe.
It takes time and determination, especially since we live in a world that buys the lie. The lie that normalizes consuming toxic, addictive substances and all the harm it brings with it in the name of celebration or relaxation or reward.
Once you start to see it for what it is and how it is causing destruction instead of pleasure, you will realize you don’t deserve it.
You deserve so much more.